I am so fucked up,or too lonely.
I dont even know what is the matter with me.I have crushes on random people. Then out of nowhere i start to like them a lil bit more than i should then suddenly i cannot get them out of my mind.I try to get as many information as i can get about this person.Sometimes if i am lucky, i found them on Facebook and everyday without fail i will check for updates about their life. This makes me really happy. Overjoyed, actually.I picture a perfect life with them,keep playing images in my head of how he is actually the guy i have always dream off. Then i fall in love. HARD. i get so attach to this so called STRANGER. I seriously love him so much without him even knowing my existence. Everyday i pray for a miracle to happen. Like, he will like my post or my picture on FB and this is where it all begins.Hell no! it never happen. I am sad that i am this weird. However its the truth about my pathetic life. Maybe what i really want is to be LOVE, be LOVE by someone who can love me so hard and so deep like i always do.I always feel like its impossible, impossible to have someone to love me as much as i can possibly love them.I hope that one day,i will look back at this post and smile. Smile because i found the one.
