that i have been in love with for about a year and i just could’nt admit it even to myself. i keep telling myself that hes just a friend and he will never, even in a million years, fall in love with me. He is the first guy in my life that i think will be perfect for me because so far the guys in my past are just hopeless and way to off for me. I have faith in him, i believe that my parents will love him and he can definitely hangout with my siblings and cousins like there are his own. I dont know why but nowadays my feelings for him are getting deeper and stronger. I wake up everyday and he is the first one to pop in my head,the whole day, I cannot stop hoping that the text and call are from him. I cant stop thinking of all the jokes we laugh at , the little nice gestures you did for me, the way you call my name.i cannot stop thinking of him and its killing me.I badly want him to love me back and i really want us to be together, because im sure i am capable of making him happy. Hes such a gentleman, thoughtful, caring, generous, kind-hearted,smart, ocassionally funny(hehe),witty sometimes, super annoying with all his little sarcastic remarks,i love the way he pushes his hair back and how soft his hair feels or looks( i never touch them bcas i’m to shy). However, i know that even how long this can go on, HE,the one who shall not be named, will never know that this whole paragraph is actually sincerely for him. I just do not know how on earth i am going to show him that i truly love him. Now i am just going to lose weight and when i look better maybe i will have the guts and courage to go up to him and make it a little bit obvious that i swear to god love him.
P.S: please realise that this is for you.
ehem, on the second thought maybe not, i don’t want it to be awkward between us. Its so nice being just friends. I dont wanna ruin anything. oh god, i am soo messed up! i am just going to block out this feeling. Even i know its impossible.
Story of my life.
(Source: youjustinspiredme, via perfectinmyownperfectway)
